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Monday, April 3, 2006
Sometimes Life just takes over
Mood:
 don't ask
Topic: His Hand Is Upon Me
Sometimes life takes over, and you gotta let the bed be your home for a few days. This past week I have had the flu. Either I am battling spiritual ... or something is really icky! When I sleep, my dreams this past weekend ... especially Saturday, and Sunday nights ... were of me praying very loudly and very -- I would say, rather mournfully ... that isn't the right word ... at times it was mournful ... but more i don't know emotional. the emotions varied. The dreams the pictures in the dream did not fit the prayers. I knew what I was praying for in the dream ... and what I was praying didn't fit the pics in the dream. (even when I couldn't understand the words I was praying in the Spirit at times) I know that I feel rested when waking ... but still icky from the flu. yet at peace spiritually. My husband hasn't said anything to me about talking in my sleep ... but he has said I have been restless in my sleep (tossing and turning)... I know that there are certain people been laid on my heart to pray for of late. But upon waking, all I remember is praying emotionally in a dream, and I don't remember what about. The Lord knows. I guess I will just leave it at that. HB
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Landmarks
Mood:
 celebratory
Topic: Blessings
This entry is actually a bit after the fact. I needed time to figure out what to say. Even as I type I only have a vague idea ... bear with me ... This past year has been amazing. The wedding pictures are online, well a few are. The wedding web page is online, and has been updated. The first has been finished. We celebrated our First Anniversary!! :) What did we do? Dinner (Salmon and Wine), music (Smooth Jazz), and Dancing. ooh yah!! Candles. Candle lit Romantic Dinner. It was awesome! So sweet and tender. But the year has not always been awesome. Oh it has been a good one, a Blessed one. But when two independant adults join forces, it isn't gonna be easy to work as a team. No matter how difficult marriage has been, I wouldn't change a thing. This whole year has been blessed. We haven't had to deal with alot of frustrations newly married couples go through, alot was dealt with during our courtship, and in pre-marital counseling with our pastor. Communication is the Key to wedded bliss. The day after we got married, my grandmother passed to Heaven. That was tough. Bittersweet. Thing is, even though I miss her, I know she is in Heaven. There were times I wanted to talk to her, and wasn't able to ... so I went back into memory, and tried to figure out the answer to the delemma with my memories ... some answers were there, and some I found within, planted by my loving parents, and pastors. Some answers my grandmother modeled during her life. Strength, prayer, standing by your man, support, encouragement ... list goes on ... What she taught my father which he implemented into his marriage, which I am learning to implement in mine, I am still learning. My mother is teaching me too. That which she has learned, and that which she instilled in me as I grew. Patience. God is always teaching me this. Even now, as we are buying our first home, I am being taught Trust, Patience, and Encouragement. All of which I lack. As a wife, I am learning to trust my husband as he makes decisions for us, and for our future. Patience to see it through, and encouragement?? I tend to be realistic. ... some might say pessimistic ... I see all sides of a concept ... both the good and the bad ... I am learning to trust in my Lord, so that I can be encouraged and to be an encourager. I am learning that my husband needs me to encourage him as he takes the position of Head of Household. As he leads and guides. This year has been difficult. But as I said earlier, I wouldn't change it for anything. I have enjoyed this year, and am looking forward to many many many more. Grandma saw all sides to an issue too ... but she had great faith. For that she instilled into me too ... my parents re-inforced ... and my husband constantly reminds me of it. For all this, and many more ... I am greatly Blessed.
I have learned and am learning to take one day at a time, push my husband in his sleep to tell him to roll over, spend more time with my husband, leave work at work, cook savory dishes, and trust in my Lord in all things, including buying a home.
~ HB
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Tuesday, February 14, 2006
What is my WARNING label?
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 mischievious
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006
New Years Resolutions
Mood:
 spacey
Now Playing: Television as background noise.
New Years Resolutions? Every year someone talks about New Years Resolutions. Where did this idea begin? I don't know. And I really don't feel like researching the concept. All I know that every now and then I think about what I would like to make for a simple goal for this new year. What are my resolutions? I have a few. Some people have one big one. I decided to have a few.
One: I want to lose weight. What resolution is complete without this goal? No, I really want to excercise more, eat healthier, and go down a dress size or two.
Two: I want to make sure that when it is my co-worker's birthday that their desk area is decorated with streamers or something similar to mark the accomplishment of growing a year older.
Three: I want to fight less, love more, and learn to enjoy life more.
Four: This one should actually be number one: but these are not listed in order of importance. I want to read my Bible more often, attend church more often, draw nearer to Jesus.
Five: Spend more time relaxing instead of in a mode of stress.
Well these are a few. I don't know what anyone else has for a resolution. But I have these.
How am I doing? Well... that is all in the eye of the beholder now isn't it?
HB
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Sunday, December 18, 2005
Why Celebrate?
Mood:
 chatty
Topic: Christmas
Many years ago, a child was born in Bethlehem, who was called a King. Some came to his bedside, a manger, and presented him with gifts of gold, frankencense, and mirrh. While others brought sheep, music, or fresh hay for his bed. Still others were so frightened of the baby they sought his death.
In my heart, the child I speak of is my Messiah, my High King, my Savior.
Christmas is the time I get to announce his Birth to the world without fear of chastisement, or pain. It is a time of fellowship with others who believe as I, and a time of joy and peace. It is a chance to shower others with blessings of gifts, just as the Christ child was presented with gifts.
Christmas isn't about Santa, his elves, his reindeer, or the gifts this mythological character brings. It is about the Love of God being so great, he sent his son to be born a helpless child who would grow to understand his purpose on Earth was to save the human race from it's endless sins through death on a cross. It is about celebrating that birth of the messiah, and his eventual death and resurrection.
It is well with my soul.
H.
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Monday, November 21, 2005
Giving Thanks
Mood:
 a-ok
Topic: Blessings
Now is the time when I always sit back and think about that for which I am thankful for. Giving thanks is one of the things I usually do when talking to my Lord, but it isn't something I usually do with friends and family. Even in Prayers, I don't always give thanks. November just has something to cause me to give thanks and to think about what is so good about my life. I am thankful for a husband who is tender and loving and understanding. I thankful for an extended family who also loves me. I am thankful for a job which may not always be emotionally easy, but one in which reminds me how Blessed I am in my life. I am thankful for the Peace I have in Jesus. I am thankful that I have a supportive family, husband, and friends.I am thankful that I have a vehicle that works, food in fridge and cupboards, clothing, linens, and a roof over my head. I am thankful for sobriety, peace, and comfort. I thankful for being blessed.
All for that which I am thankful are blessings. I am feeling very Blessed.
It is well with my soul.
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Tuesday, July 19, 2005
A Wedding to Remeber
Monday, July 18, 2005
Protected
Mood:
 happy
Topic: His Hand Is Upon Me
Driving to work today, in the middle lane of three lanes on the freeway, during rush hour. It's was nuts out there. I was on my way to work too. When all of a sudden, my car starts shaking. Then I hear a boomp, and my car is shaking. I notice as people drive by they look at me, but say nothing. I slow down, and think, My car has a problem. Does this mean I get to replace it?? But it's shaking, and that doesn't make sense. So I pull all the way over to the shoulder which isn't really a shoulder at all, it's just barely wide enough for a car to stop. It' hot out there (already 85 degrees and going to be over 100 today), I pull under an over pass, and stop. I think I feathered my brakes on the way over too. So I stop. I get out, access the damage. I have a flat tire. But it's more than that. It's a flat tire on my left rear, and it's facing oncoming traffic. Too dangerous to change. I wouldn't remember how to change a tire. Dad told me long ago, but never having a flat, never used what he told me, so, I really don't know how to change a tire. So, get back into the care, and I call my husband. Tell him what's going on. When I hear a loud tap on my rear window. I look back, and it's a motorcycle and a man in a helmet. I put my husband on hold. But I think I hung up on him, on accident. I tell the CHP officer, thanks for the concern, but I was just getting ready to call FARM TOW, and that I was on the phone with my husband at the moment. He saw that I had a cell phone, appeared to be OK, and said that he would check on me later. He left. No problem. I got a cell phone. I call FARM TOW. Give directions best I could, and settle in for a wait. I call work, and tell them I'm having car trouble, and waiting for a tow on the freeway and that I will be in later. Then, I call my husband back. He tells me that I need to call and check on e.t.a for the TOW. So I try calling again. UH ... my cell dies. OK I WAS fine until then. Now, I am totally vulnerable. I get nervous. I am standing there, watching for the tow, and no tow. So I start praying that the Lord will either bring the Tow Truck, or the officer will return. The officer eventually returns. Before greeting the officer, I look above, the overpass blocks my view of the sky, and say a word of THANKS. I note that the officer looks at the over pass above us. I actually think this is funny! I call my husband with his cell. Admitting that I am nervous, and getting scared without a cell phone had me almost in tears. The officer, assured that I was OK, and that my husband was on his way, and was only 1 exit away, left, assuring me that he or his partner would check on me in half hour, at my request. My husband shows, and we wait together. The TOW comes. We get situated, and get the car towed to where it can be taken care of. I got to work about 4 hours too late. But I got there.
Where am I going with all this? my Lord Jesus protected me. He literally drove my car to the side of the road, and cleared a path over there. I wasn't injured or harmed during my time on the side of the road. I was always safe, and when I became frightened, he sent someone to check on me, to show that he was watching out for me, and taking care of me. I felt safe and secure in the hands of the Lord.
This is my testimony. Jesus is my Lord. He is my protector in stress, and my provider in times of need. I know that I can count on HIM when the going gets tough. I know that he will send someone to take care of me. For He loves me and wants me to be protected, and cared for at all times.
Also, what a beautiful Anniversary gift he gave to my parents. Protecting their child on their anniversary day. GOD IS AWESOME!
It is well with my soul.
HB.
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Friday, July 8, 2005
Ramblings
Mood:
mischievious
Topic: Dreams, thoughts, etc
So, do dreams mean anything? I dreamed I was throwing a house party, at this really nice house. An un-invited person showed. The guest got his plate of food sat by me. I took his hand and said something to the effect that I needed to talk to him, led him to the front door, and locked him out. Completely. Then I realized that the kitchen door was unlocked so I rushed to lock it, running into my lady in waiting (??) who told me something, and I barely made it to the kitchen door. But I got it locked. Then I ran around the back, and out the yard, and to a room in a tower, separate from the house, where I found him in a room with my lady in waiting. I kicked her out, and proceeded to beat the guest up. Literally. Kicking, slapping, punching, tearing, he eventually disipated into tiny shreds. I went to where my lady in waiting was, saw her bruises, and proceeded to care for the bruises. I heard my husband's voice and I woke up. I felt refreshed. Dreams. What do they really mean? I have heard that dreams are desires come true. Dreams are your brain processing things that have hapened during the day. Dreams are wishes your heart makes. Dreams are ---- What was this dream?? Seeing as I knew the un-invited guest ... maybe I was taking out some revenge?? Or deleating him from my memory. Or he was in place of something that happened during the day at work, and he represented that situation from work? maybe and maybe not. Whatever the situation, I woke refreshed and ready to start the day, although I was rather tired, and rather stiff. All that fighting must have done a number on my beauty sleep. Oh well. The house was beautiful. Unlike any I have ever seen. It looked rather custom. I saw construction workers out the kitchen window working on the fence, and doing something with the driveway. It looked complicated, what ever was going on out there. The back yard was immaculate, complete with ponds, benches, flowers, trees, brick walks, a picnic table, squirrels, and even a duck. It was peaceful back there. Dreams, everyone has them, and everyone wonders what their dream ment. Me? I see the detail, and realize gosh, God has really blessed me with shelter, family, friends, peace, and the strength to overcome my past. That was my dream. Whoever the guest was is not important, What is important is that I defeated the imbodiment of my past in my dream. For that I am really blessed. HB :)
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Thursday, July 7, 2005
Let me explain
Mood:
 not sure
I was reviewing a post entitled Web Surfing which is dated May 28, 2005 and I was wondering if I could put some of those entries that I mention on this blog. So I added them. I am the author of all logs. I am the author of the log on AOL by mrybth and the author of the log at honeybeebug's weblog. Some of these blogs, I added here on this blog, other's I felt needed to stay there. Here are my thoughts at one location. If you want to see what wasn't brought over here, feel free to check out the links regarding the other logs. They are no longer used. This is my current blog, and will be updated as I see fit.
HoneyB.
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Mood:
a-ok
Topic: The Past
It is well with my soul.
HB
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
Owning up to the future
Mood:
 lazy
Now Playing: TV is background
Topic: Future
As one thinks about the future, one needs to think about where they just came from. Is there something in your past unsaid or undone? Then it will continue to be so in the future. Did something in your past hurt you, or upset you, and now in your present you can't understand why something so simple is upsetting you? Take one situation,and ask yourself, what in my past is causing me to be upset about this simple thing today? When you understand where the emotion is coming from, your future looks alot more interesting, and bearable.
Honey B.
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Wednesday, June 8, 2005
Finishing the Past
Mood:
mischievious
No one can go forward without finishing the past - Unknown Author
I saw this quote written down somewhere today and it caught my attention.
To me it means that in order for us to live completely in the present looking forward to the future, we need to come to terms with whatever it is that is in our past. Like it or not, everyone has some emotional baggage of some sort, and of various sizes. Once we embrace that and agree with ourselves that our past will no longer cripple us, we can then move forward. There are some whose past continues to linger, to be the reason why things don't go right. To those people I say feel the emotion that comes with the memory of the past, feel it deeply, share that memory. And then figure out how that is going to make you a better, and stronger person. Then move on. You need to face your past in order to go to the next step in life.
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Friday, June 3, 2005
Memory Lane
Mood:
not sure
Now Playing: in the memory lane of my brain, Amazing Grace.
Topic: Plum Jam.
Tom's sister Sandy was telling me about some property her and her husband are looking into buying. Several acres of land. I was telling Tom later about how it would be nice to have several acres of land. That way I could have a peach tree, an apple tree, a cherry tree, a strawberry patch, and a plum tree...
When I said Plum Tree... I thought about Grandma and her Plum Jam. How delicious was her jam! Homemade, with love, and delicious stuff. Now that she is gone, so is the jam. So then I started thinking about all the other stuff she did. Brushed and braided my hair, made peach cobbler, plum jam, the best baked goods this side of the moon, christmas Bible verses, hugs and kisses... gosh I missed her tonight. Alot.
I know that some of my Aunts have learned to make the Jam. But grandma's jam was from plums she grew from her and grandpa's love and hard work. (key word is their love) I remember helping her pick those plums and peaches, and cherries, all for various confections, at various times of the year. and Yes even the strawberries. I wonder if that is why I so dearly want a home with a large enough back yard so I can have my own garden and carry on the family hobby?? Grandma's dear to her heart hobby was sewing, quilts that is. I haven't picked up that hobby, yet, but I love plants, and I have a desire to have a garden, always have wanted one. Grandma taught me about strawberries, and how you used your thumb and index to pluck the berries, and which ones were ripe, and which weren't, and needed more time to juicen up. Cucumbers! which are ripe, and which aren't.
I remembered it all tonight...I don't share the passion to quilt, (maybe someday I will share that too--it is a curious hobby) but I do share her desire to grow tender little things like berries, flowers, and plants. Then I remembered tonight that maybe she is making her plum jam for Jesus. I heard the gentle voice of Holy Spirit asking if I would share her jam. Of course! and with that things are better.
HB
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Saturday, May 28, 2005
Web Surfing
Mood:
spacey
I'm sitting here reviewing my bookmarks on Yahoo. I come across some links that I have forgotten about. Gosh how long has it been since I looked at those bookmarks?? That got me to thinking. Hmm... I had a web log somewhere. So I got to searching. Found a log on AOL. An old account. I will try to link to it somehow... Honey Bee Bugs Thoughts over at AOL.
(I hope this works.)
I also have looked at some other blogs elsewhere, and decided that since I already have a web site with Tripod, I would snaz it up with some randomly placed thoughts. You might also check my other attempts at a web log elsewhere... Honeybeebug's web log
Well this particular entry is a trial run anyways. I don't want to have too many things out there, and want to somehow figure out a way to incorporate it all...
Well I'll catch up to this thing later.
HoneyB.
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Saturday, May 14, 2005
Let's play catch up
Mood:
 incredulous
5/14/05
As I review this website,https://honeybeebug.tripod.com/ with it's logs, pictures, quotes, statements, I wonder how I ever forgot about it. But indeed I did. After 2001, December, life sort of took over. I learned how to do my job in my new vocation. Had fears, and over came them. Conquered questions, and survived my personal doubts. I moved on from that job, into a new vocation, one that I have learned is my calling, my ministry for my Lord God. I am still here in the same county, living in the same apartment complex, and learning to Lean on Him who has always trusted in me that I will do His ministry to help the little children to come unto Him. For you see, I started my new job in January 2003 which entails protecting the safety and well fare of children. It is only recently that I have realized that I am fulfilling the one little verse where Jesus says "suffer the Little Children to come unto me for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven". I believe I am doing just that. I cannot verbally witness to the families I work with, but I believe that somehow they see my witness. Not only that but when a child is protected from neglectful and abusive adult hands, I believe I am fulfilling my calling.
Also, in the past few years as I grow, and learn, and minister, I have met the man who has since become my husband, my life mate, my partner, my love. We met at work in 2002. Started dating, got engaged, and then on February 19, 2005, we married. Many more doubts were conquered. Questions have been answered, and Dreams are fulfilled. Now, more dreams are made. Dreams of family, of a future, and of adventure. For indeed, Marriage is an adventure.
So you see, God has Blessed me greatly. When one steps out of her shell, trusts him, and walks by Faith on a daily basis, life will definitely happen, and what an adventure it is!
Thursday, July 29, 2004
His hand is upon me
Mood:
 special
The other day, I was having car trouble. You know the normal thing that happens to cars. It wouldn't start. So the tow truck guy charges it and it's taken to a shop, I'm told I need a new battery. I get a second opinion. I buy a new battery. While there, I ask them to check the brakes. They tell me that I need new front brakes, yet there is still pad. Needing some advice, I call my dad. He sends me to my Uncle, the man who knows anything and everythign about cars. Mean time, the shop puts the car back together in good time. So I go to my uncle, he says, he takes the tires off and looks at them without taken them apart, and says that they are ok for now, but they will need to be changed. Let's get the brakes. So we order the brakes. When they came in, my uncle put the brakes on, and while he at it he checked the rear brakes. They were fine. But he did notice that the caliper in the front brakes was twisted. He fixed it. But he let my dad (his brother) know that the caliper got twisted, and he was upset, because whoever put the caliper back on, put it on wrong. Not only that, had it gone unchecked it could have gone to brake failure, and he was surprised that it there hadn't been brake failure in the last two weeks while it was driven by me, since the last time the shop looked at my brakes. In short, when he told me about it, he also told me that the last time they were taken apart they were put together wrong. That there should have been brake failure because there was no brake fluid getting to the brakes while I drove it prior to him fixing it. I sat there and thought about the time I braked to not hit a car, and instead hit the curb to help me brake. I had been braking. I thought about Jabez, and how God answered his simple prayer to place his hand upon him. I thought about how I pray the same, and how God is answering my prayers. I thought about how blessed I am to be His child and protected by his hand. His hand is upon me, protecting me from evil, and keeping me from pain. He is surely alive and well. God protects me. I am Blessed because of it. :) (see I Chronicles 4:9-10.)
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
best news ever
Mood:
 chillin'
It's been two months since I last logged on to this thing. Boy have I been busy. Working, paying bills, planning a wedding, taking care of abused children, planning a baby shower, working hard, grocery shopping.... Yep planning a wedding. My wedding. I"M ENGAGED!! The wedding is set for the weekend after Valentine's day. the baby is due November. And No it's not my baby. My sib is going to be a parent. His wife is pregnant. He's gonna be a DADDY!! and a good one too, judging from how he helped raise me. Life is good, and one big blessing. I am learning that "there with my love I'm home".
Monday, March 1, 2004
Tickle tantrums
Mood:
mischievious
Well, I have had this constant nagging desire to write, like I used to in high school and college. I mean write for the fun and pure joy of it. I keep thinking about my English 101 professor, Mr Rapp. He had us writing pages and pages of the word write until we came up with a topic to write about. I have also thought about this little short story that I was working on in high school, and can't seem to finish it. So I get discouraged, and don't write. Prior to writing the previous, i was going to rant and rave about my girl friend encouraging me to wear thongs, and I am thinking and have a constant string up my butt? I don't know about that. I was also going to mention that my BF stayed home today, due to a migrain. I had dinner over here, and we had a tickle fight. I think someone is feeling better. :) Now I have a headache. Probably from all the laughter.
Stay true to yourself.
Mrybtha
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Thursday, February 28, 2002
A Whole New World
Mood:
happy
Well here I am out in the real world. Working, living, and thriving. My new job as an Eligibility worker is hard, interesting, challenging. Never a dull moment. Each day there is something different even though the paper work is all the same. My supervisor talked to me yesterday and told me that since training is now over, the real stuff begins. She will begin to look at me and begin to see if I will be able to make it here or not. That is scary. I may not be here past March, I may be here past March. I have to learn a whole new concept here. One Day at a Time. I am not used to living day to day. I am used to planning and going from those plans. but day to day?? I don't even know if i will be here in two months!! I think I can do this. I think I can. Can I ??? I hope so!! I need and want this job. I do like it, but there are days when i really really hate it. and it depresses me. But then there are days that I really feel like I am making a difference... and I feel so good about this job. I know that this is where the Good Lord wants me. I mean gosh usually people wait months to get this job, but me?? I got it within a months time. And my apartment was found and I moved in within a weeks time. Every thing happened so very fast, and I haven't slowed down yet. I moved out of my parents', moved away from my parents', moved into my first real place, got my first real job after college, my first car, began looking for my first home church outside of my parents. It is still amazing me how fast things have gone. I am still getting dizzy when I think of it. So I try to not. God really has Blessed me. And because of those Blessings I know this is where He wants me. At least for now. And for that I am content to be here for how ever long that is. The Holy Spirit guides my life daily all day, giving me strength, patience and wisdom, and knowledge. HE trully does do miracles on a daily basis for me!! :)
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