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Friday, July 8, 2005
Ramblings
Mood:
 mischievious
Topic: Dreams, thoughts, etc
So, do dreams mean anything? I dreamed I was throwing a house party, at this really nice house. An un-invited person showed. The guest got his plate of food sat by me. I took his hand and said something to the effect that I needed to talk to him, led him to the front door, and locked him out. Completely. Then I realized that the kitchen door was unlocked so I rushed to lock it, running into my lady in waiting (??) who told me something, and I barely made it to the kitchen door. But I got it locked. Then I ran around the back, and out the yard, and to a room in a tower, separate from the house, where I found him in a room with my lady in waiting. I kicked her out, and proceeded to beat the guest up. Literally. Kicking, slapping, punching, tearing, he eventually disipated into tiny shreds. I went to where my lady in waiting was, saw her bruises, and proceeded to care for the bruises. I heard my husband's voice and I woke up. I felt refreshed. Dreams. What do they really mean? I have heard that dreams are desires come true. Dreams are your brain processing things that have hapened during the day. Dreams are wishes your heart makes. Dreams are ---- What was this dream?? Seeing as I knew the un-invited guest ... maybe I was taking out some revenge?? Or deleating him from my memory. Or he was in place of something that happened during the day at work, and he represented that situation from work? maybe and maybe not. Whatever the situation, I woke refreshed and ready to start the day, although I was rather tired, and rather stiff. All that fighting must have done a number on my beauty sleep. Oh well. The house was beautiful. Unlike any I have ever seen. It looked rather custom. I saw construction workers out the kitchen window working on the fence, and doing something with the driveway. It looked complicated, what ever was going on out there. The back yard was immaculate, complete with ponds, benches, flowers, trees, brick walks, a picnic table, squirrels, and even a duck. It was peaceful back there. Dreams, everyone has them, and everyone wonders what their dream ment. Me? I see the detail, and realize gosh, God has really blessed me with shelter, family, friends, peace, and the strength to overcome my past. That was my dream. Whoever the guest was is not important, What is important is that I defeated the imbodiment of my past in my dream. For that I am really blessed. HB :)
Posted by Honeybeebug at 10:25 PM PDT
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Thursday, July 7, 2005
Let me explain
Mood:
 not sure
I was reviewing a post entitled Web Surfing which is dated May 28, 2005 and I was wondering if I could put some of those entries that I mention on this blog. So I added them. I am the author of all logs. I am the author of the log on AOL by mrybth and the author of the log at honeybeebug's weblog. Some of these blogs, I added here on this blog, other's I felt needed to stay there. Here are my thoughts at one location. If you want to see what wasn't brought over here, feel free to check out the links regarding the other logs. They are no longer used. This is my current blog, and will be updated as I see fit.
HoneyB.
Posted by Honeybeebug at 9:01 PM PDT
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Updated: Thursday, July 7, 2005 9:07 PM PDT
Mood:
 a-ok
Topic: The Past
It is well with my soul.
HB
Posted by Honeybeebug at 8:36 PM PDT
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
Owning up to the future
Mood:
 lazy
Now Playing: TV is background
Topic: Future
As one thinks about the future, one needs to think about where they just came from. Is there something in your past unsaid or undone? Then it will continue to be so in the future. Did something in your past hurt you, or upset you, and now in your present you can't understand why something so simple is upsetting you? Take one situation,and ask yourself, what in my past is causing me to be upset about this simple thing today? When you understand where the emotion is coming from, your future looks alot more interesting, and bearable.
Honey B.
Posted by Honeybeebug at 9:53 PM PDT
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Wednesday, June 8, 2005
Finishing the Past
Mood:
mischievious
No one can go forward without finishing the past - Unknown Author
I saw this quote written down somewhere today and it caught my attention.
To me it means that in order for us to live completely in the present looking forward to the future, we need to come to terms with whatever it is that is in our past. Like it or not, everyone has some emotional baggage of some sort, and of various sizes. Once we embrace that and agree with ourselves that our past will no longer cripple us, we can then move forward. There are some whose past continues to linger, to be the reason why things don't go right. To those people I say feel the emotion that comes with the memory of the past, feel it deeply, share that memory. And then figure out how that is going to make you a better, and stronger person. Then move on. You need to face your past in order to go to the next step in life.
Posted by Honeybeebug at 8:20 PM PDT
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Friday, June 3, 2005
Memory Lane
Mood:
not sure
Now Playing: in the memory lane of my brain, Amazing Grace.
Topic: Plum Jam.
Tom's sister Sandy was telling me about some property her and her husband are looking into buying. Several acres of land. I was telling Tom later about how it would be nice to have several acres of land. That way I could have a peach tree, an apple tree, a cherry tree, a strawberry patch, and a plum tree...
When I said Plum Tree... I thought about Grandma and her Plum Jam. How delicious was her jam! Homemade, with love, and delicious stuff. Now that she is gone, so is the jam. So then I started thinking about all the other stuff she did. Brushed and braided my hair, made peach cobbler, plum jam, the best baked goods this side of the moon, christmas Bible verses, hugs and kisses... gosh I missed her tonight. Alot.
I know that some of my Aunts have learned to make the Jam. But grandma's jam was from plums she grew from her and grandpa's love and hard work. (key word is their love) I remember helping her pick those plums and peaches, and cherries, all for various confections, at various times of the year. and Yes even the strawberries. I wonder if that is why I so dearly want a home with a large enough back yard so I can have my own garden and carry on the family hobby?? Grandma's dear to her heart hobby was sewing, quilts that is. I haven't picked up that hobby, yet, but I love plants, and I have a desire to have a garden, always have wanted one. Grandma taught me about strawberries, and how you used your thumb and index to pluck the berries, and which ones were ripe, and which weren't, and needed more time to juicen up. Cucumbers! which are ripe, and which aren't.
I remembered it all tonight...I don't share the passion to quilt, (maybe someday I will share that too--it is a curious hobby) but I do share her desire to grow tender little things like berries, flowers, and plants. Then I remembered tonight that maybe she is making her plum jam for Jesus. I heard the gentle voice of Holy Spirit asking if I would share her jam. Of course! and with that things are better.
HB
Posted by Honeybeebug at 11:08 PM PDT
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Saturday, May 28, 2005
Web Surfing
Mood:
 spacey
I'm sitting here reviewing my bookmarks on Yahoo. I come across some links that I have forgotten about. Gosh how long has it been since I looked at those bookmarks?? That got me to thinking. Hmm... I had a web log somewhere. So I got to searching. Found a log on AOL. An old account. I will try to link to it somehow... Honey Bee Bugs Thoughts over at AOL.
(I hope this works.)
I also have looked at some other blogs elsewhere, and decided that since I already have a web site with Tripod, I would snaz it up with some randomly placed thoughts. You might also check my other attempts at a web log elsewhere... Honeybeebug's web log
Well this particular entry is a trial run anyways. I don't want to have too many things out there, and want to somehow figure out a way to incorporate it all...
Well I'll catch up to this thing later.
HoneyB.
Posted by Honeybeebug at 2:38 PM PDT
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Saturday, May 14, 2005
Let's play catch up
Mood:
 incredulous
5/14/05
As I review this website,https://honeybeebug.tripod.com/ with it's logs, pictures, quotes, statements, I wonder how I ever forgot about it. But indeed I did. After 2001, December, life sort of took over. I learned how to do my job in my new vocation. Had fears, and over came them. Conquered questions, and survived my personal doubts. I moved on from that job, into a new vocation, one that I have learned is my calling, my ministry for my Lord God. I am still here in the same county, living in the same apartment complex, and learning to Lean on Him who has always trusted in me that I will do His ministry to help the little children to come unto Him. For you see, I started my new job in January 2003 which entails protecting the safety and well fare of children. It is only recently that I have realized that I am fulfilling the one little verse where Jesus says "suffer the Little Children to come unto me for theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven". I believe I am doing just that. I cannot verbally witness to the families I work with, but I believe that somehow they see my witness. Not only that but when a child is protected from neglectful and abusive adult hands, I believe I am fulfilling my calling.
Also, in the past few years as I grow, and learn, and minister, I have met the man who has since become my husband, my life mate, my partner, my love. We met at work in 2002. Started dating, got engaged, and then on February 19, 2005, we married. Many more doubts were conquered. Questions have been answered, and Dreams are fulfilled. Now, more dreams are made. Dreams of family, of a future, and of adventure. For indeed, Marriage is an adventure.
So you see, God has Blessed me greatly. When one steps out of her shell, trusts him, and walks by Faith on a daily basis, life will definitely happen, and what an adventure it is!
Thursday, July 29, 2004
His hand is upon me
Mood:
 special
The other day, I was having car trouble. You know the normal thing that happens to cars. It wouldn't start. So the tow truck guy charges it and it's taken to a shop, I'm told I need a new battery. I get a second opinion. I buy a new battery. While there, I ask them to check the brakes. They tell me that I need new front brakes, yet there is still pad. Needing some advice, I call my dad. He sends me to my Uncle, the man who knows anything and everythign about cars. Mean time, the shop puts the car back together in good time. So I go to my uncle, he says, he takes the tires off and looks at them without taken them apart, and says that they are ok for now, but they will need to be changed. Let's get the brakes. So we order the brakes. When they came in, my uncle put the brakes on, and while he at it he checked the rear brakes. They were fine. But he did notice that the caliper in the front brakes was twisted. He fixed it. But he let my dad (his brother) know that the caliper got twisted, and he was upset, because whoever put the caliper back on, put it on wrong. Not only that, had it gone unchecked it could have gone to brake failure, and he was surprised that it there hadn't been brake failure in the last two weeks while it was driven by me, since the last time the shop looked at my brakes. In short, when he told me about it, he also told me that the last time they were taken apart they were put together wrong. That there should have been brake failure because there was no brake fluid getting to the brakes while I drove it prior to him fixing it. I sat there and thought about the time I braked to not hit a car, and instead hit the curb to help me brake. I had been braking. I thought about Jabez, and how God answered his simple prayer to place his hand upon him. I thought about how I pray the same, and how God is answering my prayers. I thought about how blessed I am to be His child and protected by his hand. His hand is upon me, protecting me from evil, and keeping me from pain. He is surely alive and well. God protects me. I am Blessed because of it. :) (see I Chronicles 4:9-10.)
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
best news ever
Mood:
 chillin'
It's been two months since I last logged on to this thing. Boy have I been busy. Working, paying bills, planning a wedding, taking care of abused children, planning a baby shower, working hard, grocery shopping.... Yep planning a wedding. My wedding. I"M ENGAGED!! The wedding is set for the weekend after Valentine's day. the baby is due November. And No it's not my baby. My sib is going to be a parent. His wife is pregnant. He's gonna be a DADDY!! and a good one too, judging from how he helped raise me. Life is good, and one big blessing. I am learning that "there with my love I'm home".
Monday, March 1, 2004
Tickle tantrums
Mood:
mischievious
Well, I have had this constant nagging desire to write, like I used to in high school and college. I mean write for the fun and pure joy of it. I keep thinking about my English 101 professor, Mr Rapp. He had us writing pages and pages of the word write until we came up with a topic to write about. I have also thought about this little short story that I was working on in high school, and can't seem to finish it. So I get discouraged, and don't write. Prior to writing the previous, i was going to rant and rave about my girl friend encouraging me to wear thongs, and I am thinking and have a constant string up my butt? I don't know about that. I was also going to mention that my BF stayed home today, due to a migrain. I had dinner over here, and we had a tickle fight. I think someone is feeling better. :) Now I have a headache. Probably from all the laughter.
Stay true to yourself.
Mrybtha
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Thursday, February 28, 2002
A Whole New World
Mood:
 happy
Well here I am out in the real world. Working, living, and thriving. My new job as an Eligibility worker is hard, interesting, challenging. Never a dull moment. Each day there is something different even though the paper work is all the same. My supervisor talked to me yesterday and told me that since training is now over, the real stuff begins. She will begin to look at me and begin to see if I will be able to make it here or not. That is scary. I may not be here past March, I may be here past March. I have to learn a whole new concept here. One Day at a Time. I am not used to living day to day. I am used to planning and going from those plans. but day to day?? I don't even know if i will be here in two months!! I think I can do this. I think I can. Can I ??? I hope so!! I need and want this job. I do like it, but there are days when i really really hate it. and it depresses me. But then there are days that I really feel like I am making a difference... and I feel so good about this job. I know that this is where the Good Lord wants me. I mean gosh usually people wait months to get this job, but me?? I got it within a months time. And my apartment was found and I moved in within a weeks time. Every thing happened so very fast, and I haven't slowed down yet. I moved out of my parents', moved away from my parents', moved into my first real place, got my first real job after college, my first car, began looking for my first home church outside of my parents. It is still amazing me how fast things have gone. I am still getting dizzy when I think of it. So I try to not. God really has Blessed me. And because of those Blessings I know this is where He wants me. At least for now. And for that I am content to be here for how ever long that is. The Holy Spirit guides my life daily all day, giving me strength, patience and wisdom, and knowledge. HE trully does do miracles on a daily basis for me!! :)
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